When? | (I'm not a diver anymore)

I'm doing, I'm practicing, I'm trying..
Solving that equations and learn some theory and the proofs,
hoping someday I might found something to the world,
hoping that  I can invest something..

But,
what is that thing?
when I can be so productive?
does organization can improve my skills?
what can I optimize?,
when is my time?
when I can make money from what I discover?

Is that time will happen?
Or just illusion on my mind?
The mind of people who is always dreaming

a dream  to be the leader of technology company,
a dream to be a great leader,
a dream to take responsibilities

but when is the day?

They are crying,
I'm just standing..

They are happy,
I'm just standing..

I can't see anything
I'm just imagining..

When I think about it,
then I realize..
Just by thinking and imagining about it,
Then I will not make it.

I..
I must do deliberate study and practice,
that's hard but just do it!
I will go through it and see a bright future in my Imagination..

I will make the bright future in my imagination becomes reality,
as God permit me to do that,
by fixing every mistakes that I did,
erase everything that does not important without disconnecting the bounds..

See the future in my eye,
and believe,
I can do that,

So when is the time?
In the future that I believe,
I see myself standing there,
With so much positive energy that I can share with anyone,
I'm not a diver anymore

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